okay, i think wireless network is one of the greatest invention.

on a more serious note,
im damn annoyed by singaporean adults.
firstly, i want to know what's with SHARING seats with others during dinner time.?
shouldn't you all(so-called adults) be setting an example?
if leaving two empty seats is  a good example, 
dont blame us(youngsters) for following your footsteps.

when we are really tired,
accidentally fall asleep  on the priority seat.
you all love to "complain" how inconsiderate we are.
hey, c'mon you all are actually THE good example that we are following.

i just wish i'm not a resident here.
i dont see the need to feel proud until you idiots do something about yourselves.
call me an angry kid,
i think the most childish group of people alive are so-called-adults.





 

if getting shoot in the head can make me more talented,
i will do it.
i see myself lacking of talent in something i love to it.
friends and many people that i respect sees me as a future-to-be designer,
but i ask myself if i'm good enough to be one.

when you're in a course where everyone is so passionate,
you will realise you're nothing compared to the rest.
either you be best at it or forget it.
everything is so intense, everyone is so talented,
i saw many people unable to take it &leave.
i know i cannot see myself leaving
but being best at it is a different thing. 

 

this is how my life is,
and how i very much feeling right now.

to be honest, i haven't been feeling fine.
in fact, i have been feeling like crap.
somehow, it's going to do with so many things going on,
in both my heart and mind.
 
i think so far,
my life has come to a stage where i don't recognise
what's ups and downs anymore.
they're always coming so unexpectedly,
i think i'm so used to it.

very often, i wish i can be a emotional retard person.
yes, just like robot, no feelings attached at all.
but i know, it will be very unfair to my family &friends,
especially my goodfs.

im sorry, girls.
i know this is a very selfish thinking of mine.
but seriously, i'm feeling very very horrible nowadays.
i wish i could i go somewhere i could get lost
and never find a way home.


i guess,
never will i experience someone holding my hands,
teling me how much he loves me.
i'm fine with myself, i'll be fine, very fine.
i have too much issues to handle as a person.
 




 

i guess good posts are produced
when im feeling lousy.

somehow, i have an addiction to sadness.
i realised it feels good to feel sad.
get what i mean, contradicting.

i feel sad because,
i feel sad...
somehow, i find ridiculous reasons to feel sad.

okay, stop.
i dont feel like posting anymore.

 

 

 
steamboat, talking, "nap" and lots of rushing of pjs.
i guess thats how we build friendship.
i love them, &i know they too love me.



somehow, i felt i'm not doing enough as their friend.
please tell me if there's something wrong.

 
ahhh, i cannot wait to go out with you both!

i realised how much my mum cares,
actually these two days been rushing projects.
in between, i fell sick &guess what, i was a lil irresponsible.
i went to school,
went to spotlight with Zhang Qian
&home around 8plus.
i continued with research.

About 5am, my mum came out 
&said, "you didn't sleep for the whole night?"
me, " yes."
mum, " are you crazy?can you go and catch some sleep!"
me,"okok, give me finish up my work first."

the next morning,
my mum actually made me breakfast
&ask me to finish it no matter what.

maybe only my closer friends know,
actually my relationship with my mum was never good.
she was never there for me &stuffs.
we can quarrel like crazy 
&have cold war for days/weeks.

Come to think about these little acts,
it just motivates me to work harder 
&do better &better.
it's these little acts that show she really cares.
Mum, you have become one of my motivation.
i love you.



when im going to give up,
You give me strength.
God, You're so real.







 

 

sometime ago, i remember 20july was the date.
i remember i was late for the first day of school,
apparently, i looked around
&decided to settle down at the seat beside me.


there were two girls sitting beside me.
to be honest, the one that was sitting right inside,
looked a little fierce.
while the girl beside me had a "i-dont-care" face.
i told myself that,
"how nice, i don't thinking i will make any friends here!?"
somehow, the girl beside me talked to me.
i remember she was telling me how well i drew,
in fact my impression of her changed straight away.(me being realistic.)

after that, the girl right inside turned and looked too.
she too said the same thing,
thinking back just make me smile and think it's all fate.
somewhat, we clicked &became close friends.

Maybe God find my life is too miserable, 
so decided to give me two amazing friends.



sunday was actually the 2nd month we know each other!
but i know, all of us are just so busy rushing pjs.
im sorry that at times,
im not there to help when your need help.
to be honest,
i felt crappp when i realised all i care was my own work.
i guess im not that good after all.

however, happy 2nd month!<3


 

loves,
Vans.

 

i know, &i know this friendship will be different.
girls, i  really want you both to be with me for the next 3 years
&see each other graduate/pursue a BA.
i love you both,
&i really do.




sometimes, i feel helpless.






 

"Will you, __________________ take this woman ______________ to be your wedded wife, to live together in the legal estate of matrimony? Will you love her, comfort her, honour and keep her in sickness and in health and forsaking all others, be faithful to her, so long as you both shall live?" 

he answered, "I will."

"Will you, _________________ take this man _________________ to be your wedded husband, to live together in the ligal estate of matrimony? Will you love him, comfort him, honour and keep him in sickness and in health and forsaking all others, be faithful to him, so long as you both shall live?" 

she answered, "I will."